4/3/2014

I noticed you jump up at church to hold the door for a woman using a walker.

I noticed you pick up a dropped toy for a small child.

I noticed you learning how to get the girls ready for school.

I noticed you get up without complaint to turn off the light, get me some medicine, and rub my back.

I noticed you choose to leave your family party early, even though you were having a nice time, because you noticed I was worn out.

I noticed you let me sleep in on your days off.

I noticed you probably love me!

2/18/2014

Thank you for helping me with the most mundane tasks, without belittling or making me feel useless.

Thank you for learning how to shampoo my excessively long, tangled hair.

Thank you for learning how to brush the tangles out.

Thank you for understanding when I make a crazy statement like "I want to get a handle to attach to the lid of my deodorant." and knowing why I'd want such a thing -- to help get those tight lids off when my hands are weak and swollen.

Thank you for cuddling up with me before going to bed at night with no demand or expectation of anything beyond simply being close physically.

Thank you for bending a dozen times a day to pick up something I dropped or cannot reach.

Thank you for getting up or hollering up a girl to get me something I need.

Thank you for helping me to find the silver linings in life and keeping perspective of how significant the change is in my life and also how it can co-exist with those things I can still be capable of.

Thank you for reading the paranoid, curious, or anxious articles, symptom lists, and treatments.

Thank you for enabling the stockpile of small joys -- books, puzzle games, Dr Pepper, waffle-related entertainment.

Thank you for being you.

Thank you for being mine.

2/10/2014

I love you.

1/12/2014

All the time.  ALL the time.

1/9/2014

Do you know how incredibly fortunate we are?  We get eternity together!  I'm listening to some of these books that end with "happily ever after" meaning "until someone kicks the bucket".  What a way to make the prospect of death all the more terrifying.  I'm so glad to see beyond that eventuality.  I'm so glad to see my life with you and with our family continuing onward.  What a wonderful blessing.
It's also good I'm listening to these alone.  I tend to yell at the book.  Too often they say such things as "what more could we ask for?" and I end up shouting at them about eternity and all the wonderful things that come with it.  Crazy, sure, but I'm glad we have it.

1/6/2014

What a yucky, pukey day. I'm looking forward to the chicken bowl you said you'd bring home for me. I think I'm finally in need of actual food! Hopefully this is just a little bug and won't last very long. I really want to finally get something done in this stupid house!

12/31/2013 after midnight, so technically 1/1/2014

Happy new year,  baby.   My resolution is to be here with you and our 3 girls celebrating the next new year in no worse shape than I am now (allowances made for issues outside my control).  One day at a time is my usual focus,  but I'm going to try thinking big!   After all,  without me none of you would ever be able to find anything!   Besides,  I like being with you all.